Thankfully, I've made it past my fall slump, where I feel pulled into the depths that depression so willingly provides. That late Thanksgiving weekend has made the sprint to the end of the year so short! It's been quite a busy end to 2019, in the best way possible. This year-end feels ripe with transformation as if our dreams are so big that they can't wait for the new year to begin. I've also noticed a lot changing for so many of those around me and in my inner circle: big moves, job changes, relationships budding, and ending.
The Universe is calling for leaps of faith well beyond our imagination. Whenever I feel myself being stretched, I can't help but reflect on where my path has taken me. I find a lot of solace and comfort with this rearview look. I hope you, too, can reflect on this past year and decade and recognize your own tremendous growth while also taking the time to get really clear on your core desired feelings for the future and the life you crave most.
I have officially left my corporate job, December 20th was my last day (is this real life?!), after three and a half years; the longest I've ever been with one company. And you know that feeling when something has run its course entirely, that every part of your being is ready for what's next as if you're being propelling into the next thing? That was my experience this week. Perhaps because my tail has been so long? I feel really good with a successful and complete hand-off of every last thing that I used to do to an amazing woman that I also became fast friends with. This last week presented several bittersweet moments as well. I had to make some hard decisions and say "no" to a few things that didn't align with my new path--and man, I felt like I needed to justify it every time, but now, I know everything ended exactly as it was supposed to be.
During a conversation this week, sharing our individual experiences and reflections of growth, I was reminded that saying yes to certain things is a resounding no to everything else, which we might never know if they present greater possibilities. Our comfort zone and stagnation can feel a little too cozy. It's the softer side to the grass being greener. We can find contentment and balance between comfort and growth, being wary of compromise.
While I don't know what is to come, I'm going into 2020 with a two-week break and a heart wide open; it's so open that my word for 2020 is: soften. If you've known me long enough, you know that I can be stubborn and impatient when I set my eyes on a goal or a particular plan. This coming year, I hope to soften my approach, to find a little bit of surrender, to open to entirely to possibility that I have no choice but to soften, trust, and let go.
Head up and heart out,
Paige